I slept well last night. Two nights in a row. Was so very needed!!!! I didn’t sleep at all for the first couple days we were displaced. Adrenaline kicked in and kept me going. Not in that hyper way, just my body wasn’t able to slow down and rest. Certainly not sleep. A state of constant fight or flight, I guess. I woke up just … Continue reading Emotional Roller Coaster
Gotta be honest here. I was the first person on the band wagon for structure being good for us is bogus! To a large degree, I’m a 47 year old teenager. lol That shouldn’t be news to anyone that’s followed my blog more than a day or two. My life has been very structured, routine and consistent for a few years now. I depend on … Continue reading Hard Hat Area!
i’m running a fever that’s got me having chills & sweats. i’m angry as all get out about my house. Emails from the trustee asking me to solve the issue with getting the house fixed came through tonight. NOT MY JOB!!! It’s soley his!! i’m tired of not feeling good. i’m grumpy. my head hurts, my lungs hurt. Doctor appointment on Thursday. i’ve got dinner … Continue reading At The Moment…
Today I’m writing about what makes it easy or difficult to get into little space. Funny thing, most of the time I slip in and out of little space easily and very fluidly. For some reason I’ve been grown up completely for the last couple of days. No rhyme or reason. I’m just big. Actually there is a reason, I’ve got adult life stress on … Continue reading Day 4 of Little Introspection: Is it easy or difficult to fall into little space?
Today was the first time in ages that things have felt “normal”. Stress was lower, despite seeing our home in absolute ruins and being woken up to a fire alarm. Daddy took me to lunch at one of our favorite spots. Ruffi sat quietly at our feet as we chatted about regular life stuff eating pizza, roast beef sandwiches, the best chicken tenders ever and … Continue reading Emotional tonight…
As soon as things felt more manageable, they went sideways all over again. 😦 I just broke down in tears again. Company left, Daddy and i had a quiet day of sleep and bonding where we both felt safe and calm again. We slept in yesterday, got up rested and hopeful. We were looking forward to the day. After breakfast in the hotel, we went … Continue reading Day 16: Water Damage
I’ve been trying to find the time to log in and blog a bit for days now. It does me well to sit down and write. It’s one of my coping skills to reduce stress and stay sane. Things have been too busy and stressful to do it. I mentioned that Daddy’s friend, T, flew in from Boston this past Sunday. I picked her up, … Continue reading Day 14- Water Damage
i talk often about real life D/s and how it works in my home. We live it 24/7. There are no holidays or time outs from our dynamic. Daddy is always Daddy. i am always His little one. We’ve gone through sickness, financial stress and a myriad of other things. When things get hard is when we pull on our D/s work boots and work … Continue reading D/s wearing work boots
I woke up this morning feeling refreshed… until I went to the bathroom and remembered we have no water. The weight of the world sank down upon me yet again. It’s so hot here today I can hardly think straight. I hadn’t had a shower in 2 days and felt physically disgusting. That hot, sticky kind of gross. I rarely get actually dirty. My hair … Continue reading Working my way back to center.
The weekend was nice for us… and so very needed. What an exhausting week!! It’s finally coming to a conclusion. i’ve been watching my renter move out for the last few hours. Packing the car. Waiting for his help to arrive to get the big stuff. i sigh a huge sigh of relief! Tonight is the first night that Daddy and i will live together … Continue reading Friday again…