This post is for Eliza following her request earlier today. Check out her blog https://elizajourneythroughlife.home.blog/. I’ve written a number of posts about living with and overcoming from an eating disorder. Today I want to talk about living in recovery. I’ve been recovered for about 10 years now. It’s different in so many ways. One of them is having the ability to actively choose to self-soothe … Continue reading Recovery from an Eating Disorder
The saying “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” is fine. It has value and is true in many instances. It’s not meant to encapsulate every bad thing that’s ever happened to you. For example child abuse, rape, domestic violence, going to war … these are traumatic events which don’t make you stronger. They break you. Once anything is broken the integrity of the object … Continue reading Trauma DOESN’T make you stronger
I’ve watched the numbers on the scale go up slowly for the last few month. At first I blamed the gluten. I wasn’t willing to look at how my portions have increased and how I’m eating whatever whenever. I haven’t done this in years. I mean like a decade!!! When Daddy and I went hiking on Monday and I saw the pictures of myself…. my … Continue reading Struggling with myself
Trigger Warning: Graphic descriptions of anorexic behavior. May upset some reader or trigger others. I hit my adult height of 5’8″ at 12 years old. I was never your stick thin girl, I’m just not built that way. At 14 years old and 145 pounds, my ribs and hips stuck out, I had no breasts to speak of, my collar bone was very pronounced. I … Continue reading “Anorexia isn’t only for the thin…”
The first AA meeting I remember going to was with my mom when I was about 5. I’m sure there were others when I was younger. My mom went through the backdoor of AA into Al-Anon, but spent quite a number of years in AA first. She went to AA because she didn’t know about Al-Anon and she was married to a raging alcoholic in … Continue reading Hi, I’m kitten, NOT an alcoholic.