The last couple of weeks have been busy. Mentally, physically, and emotionally taxing. There are life stressors starting to show up a little at a time again. Monotony is setting in in a very bad way. i’m not getting my daily dose of quiet time like i’m used to. i haven’t been able to relax enough to slip into little space. i can’t thrive without a fair amount of time spent in little space on a regular basis.
It took me a bit to get to what my actual need is. Nope, it’s not sex. Daddy and i have been having lots of sex! Then i thought it was subspace. Yes, subspace helps. i can’t reach subspace unless i’m getting my little time. Being little is when i’m my most authentic self. i’m submissive and adore my Daddy. i’m relaxed and don’t worry about everything. i cope better with the world…. even big stuff when i’m little. i find my artistic expression when i’m little and can escape into a world filled with joy and smiles… even on really hard days. Being little is where i relax and unwind. my head stops running and i can simply BE. Everyone needs this time. i simply find mine within the safety of my DD/lg relationship and being little. Too much time being big makes kitten a cranky girl!!!!
i felt the naughty side coming to the surface. i was feeling like it was Daddy’s fault i’m unhappy and stressed. i was going to crab at Him that He needs to fix it but i didn’t know how to do that. i started writing about what i need. Honestly, it started with all the things Daddy isn’t doing right. *giggles* Isn’t that how most of us begin processing discontent? The more i wrote the clearer it became that i haven’t been little in a few weeks. i haven’t colored or eaten ice cream for breakfast. i haven’t skipped while walking the dogs or babbled on about little things. Nope. i’ve been stuck in Big mode. Dishes, laundry, housework, bills, blah, blah, blah. No cartoons or Disney movies. No music that makes me wiggle and sing and get silly. i’ve been big and serious. i’m hard to live with when i spend too much time being big!! For me & Daddy!!! 😉
He’s doing His own thing for a little while. i needed some quiet time to let my brain relax a bit. As i’ve mentioned before… Daddy has the TV going from the moment He wakes up in the morning until the moment He goes to sleep. i need long periods of silence during the day. i’m still figuring out how to carve out that quiet space for myself when others are home. He’s upstairs for a bit and i’m cuddling the puppies blogging. It’s just about time to come back together and find some little space with my Daddy.