I Can’t Sleep!

It’s 5:15 am and I’m wide eyed and bushy tailed! I went to bed around 2:30 and just couldn’t sleep. I tossed and turned with a zillion thoughts running through my head. I finally decided to just get up around 4:00.

My mind is chattering. STOP ALREADY!!!! I know there’s house work to get done and bills to pay. I know I need to hire contractors to finish the work on the house and get my paperwork in order for the meeting with the attorney on the 1st. Yes, yes, yes…. I know all of these things all too well. They don’t need to be done right this minute.

I finished the slippers I was knitting for my husband and sewed them all up. They’re rather nice, if I do say so myself. 🙂

I went over the household budget, which always calms me. Enough money isn’t the issue… it’s budgeting and spending wisely. Being newly weds… this is one of those issues we’re still working on. I’m more frugal. I’d rather be without cash and have all the bills paid. He’s a little more on the other end of that scale. Hits my stress buttons and causes fears around financial insecurity…. the actual survival stuff. We’ll get there. There hasn’t been anything yet which we haven’t been able to talk through and figure out.

I need a damn shagging so bad I can hardly see straight!!!! It’s been about 2 weeks. Far too long for me! There have been a lot of good reasons why we haven’t, but they don’t change the fact that I’m resentful that we haven’t. I’m an every day girl and going weeks without sex is totally unacceptable. Is this part of why I can’t sleep? Perhaps. A sound orgasm always puts me to sleep! 🙂

Did I mention that I made a pie last night? I followed a recipe from a blogger. The pie was going to be outstanding given what the unset batter tasted like. It was a maple walnut cheese cake pie (unbaked) that I put a delightful ginger cookie crust on bottom. I kid you not…. I took it out of the fridge to put a piece in my husbands lunch… and CRASH!!!! I dropped the pie face down on the floor and proceeded to watch the Pyrex pie plate shatter across my kitchen floor. I let out a shreek to raise the dead!!! I can laugh now, but I almost cried in the moment. We never even cut into the pie… 😦

I’ve been playing lots and lots of Mahjong. I love that game! I started playing back in the mid 1990’s. I worked as a receptionist and there were days the phones just never rang. I got very good at Mahjong. Other days the phones were so busy I had all 5 lines going at the same time all day. The joys of corporate America. Feast or famon.

I’m absolutely rambling with no particular place I’m rambling to. If you’ve stuck it out this long… you’re kind. 🙂 Hopefully the rest of you are sound asleep… and if you’re not, it’s a reasonable time to be awake in your corner of the world.

~Jodie

5 thoughts on “I Can’t Sleep!

  1. I know all about the early morning thing. But, given that I’m uncovering so much subconscious crap as I try to get some relief from BPD, I’m not surprised I have insomnia. It’s waking up at stupid o’clock, getting up, and then being busy for a whole damn day until normal bed-time. Crazy.
    I got very interested when you said you really needed a shagging. ❤

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