The last few weeks I’ve been working to bring myself back inline with my meditation practices. I’d forgotten how good it feels to center myself, meditate and draw upon the energy available to all of us.
I struggled with the whole clear-your-mind style of meditation. Relax, focus on your breath, notice your thoughts and let them go. Trying to do this was like being in Dante’s 9th ring of Hell! It didn’t work for me. I still don’t do it all these years later.
I’ve been introduced to a vast variety of meditation styles. I do best with active meditation. Counting breaths, walking, mantras, visualization, guided meditations to name a few. My favorite is one I learned at a psychic school about 20 years ago.
I started having unusual experiences as a little girl. I can’t remember how I old with the first. I know they grew with frequency and intensity over the years bringing about a natural curiosity. I picked up a cheap book on developing psychic abilities at a local bookstore. lol That’s where I got my start. Believe it or not, I got a nice foundation to start with, just no training in protection and how to really use what I had available to me. I found myself in too deep, got scared and shut it down hard. It was years before I was willing to try again.
A friend invited me to take a meditation class at a local psychic school. I jumped at that in a heartbeat! Meditation is the foundation for accessing and fully controlling metaphysical abilities. So there I was on my way to learning what I was doing naturally. I was a quick study and went beyond the meditation classes. 🙂
Grounding is the style I learned in those classes. It didn’t jive immediately, but fast enough that I was willing to keep at it. Now it’s the only type of mediation I do. I have variations of it, but it all starts with the same basic principle. In essence, being one with Earth and the Universe while allowing the energy of both to flow through me. I’m very sensitive to energy and frequencies. I experience them through the vibration of color. I’ll talk a little more about that in a minute.
I have to be careful with meditation these days. I no longer struggle to stay in meditation. I find a peace and quiet despite the visualization I do. There have been times that I’ve spent over 3 hours in deep meditation where I haven’t really wanted to come back. It’s usually an unexpected noise in my physical environment which draws me back.
I access my spirit guides while in meditation. It is also where I tune my levels of openness to my abilities. Yes, I do have a way to turn them up and down and off when it suits me. I do healing work on those requesting it, set up protection for myself and my home on that level. Meditation is where I go to ground, center, and get in tune with my inner self and the energies around me to see and feel beyond what my physical eyes see.
Tonight, I was playing with energy. Ahh… yes, I forgot to say more about the color of energy. When I was a kid there would be days that I absolutely couldn’t wear a certain color or had to wear one. It wasn’t a preference. They felt wrong and uncomfortable clear into my being. At that age, people thought I was being a brat or a little weird. Aside from the science of light frequencies, I’ve come to understand that each color has a way it makes me feel. Some vibrations feel good, others not so much. I can affect my mood and energy level by the “color” of energy I run through my body or wear. I’m drawn to really high frequency colors like hot pink, fuchsia, violet and an all time favorite is silver. When I need to slow down, relax or sooth myself, colors like burnt orange and brown are good. Blues and greens are nice neutral feeling energies. I typically choose to mix the colors and frequently add effervescent bubbles to help move things through my field or just because it feels good. 🙂 This is my favorite part of meditating! Playing with the colors to find what feels good at that moment… or what I need.
Back to what I was saying about playing with energy tonight. 🙂 (All my digressions…) Energy balls. Creating balls of energy, feeling them, expanding and shrinking them, changing how they feel, adding more shock to them and bring them back down to just the sensation of energy flowing from my hands. It’s been forever since I’ve done this. Felt great. Was a ton of fun!! 🙂
I have a strong psychic link with my Husband. A very good thing! It also makes it difficult for me to tune Him out on a psychic level. He is always present in my energy field. I’ve not yet mastered how to turn down the volume where He’s concerned. lol Tonight, as I sat there playing with energy balls, I could feel Him…. the experience was like He was thinking about me, needed to tell me something non-urgent but it was blaring over everything else. lol Imagine a child, “Mommy, Mommy, Mommy….” and you’re thinking, “What???? I’m busy!” Now, Daddy… don’t take that the wrong way. 😉
Despite the interruption, it’s a very good sign. 🙂 It means I’m well on my way back to being in tune with all of my abilities. Soon, very soon, my 3rd eye will pop back open and I’ll be ready for more than just a little energy play.